Wednesday, July 21, 2010

I have a new nephew!!

Isaac Tyler
July 21, 2010
6lbs 8oz 19 in. long

My sister and her husband had their first baby tonight a tiny little boy. I have to say that with each successive pregnancy/birth my own pain from our infertility and my own sucky birth experience lessens, but it's still there and I still cry. 

That said I am so thankful that it's not as awful as it used to be. Prior, when we were still in the midst of our own infertility battle a pregnancy announcement sent me over the edge, and I'm happy to say that I'm much better. I don't break down into a sobbing mess anymore... yay for progress.

However, my new hurt is labor and delivery. I still mourn that I wasn't awake for my delivery, I mourn that Marcus wasn't able to be in the room, I mourn that they were premature and I didn't get to see or hold them for days. I mourn leaving the hospital without them, I mourn that every single thing related to getting pregnant, pregnancy, labor and delivery was abnormal. Although I mourn these things for myself and cry my silent tears, I am truly truly grateful for the healing that has already taken place.

I am in a much better place than I was even a few months ago and perhaps with time hearing stories of pregnancy announcements won't make me hurt and hearing about L&D won't make me cry. I hate that the infertility and my subsequent pregnancy full of complications have resulted in causing pain in the midst of a joyous happy occasion.

I noted to Marcus as we headed down to the hospital that I was getting to see and hold my nephew much sooner than I did Eli and Emerson. He was a mere two hours old tiny and new. Congrats to my sister and brother-in-law, and yay for a new boy baby in the family!

(And this probably lacks any kind of coherency I'm exhausted and have had a massive migraine most of the day). 


Gabbina said...

He's adorable! Congratulations!

~Jess said...

I still choke up a bit at pregnancy announcements. *hugs*

July 21 is a great day to be born ;-)

Too funny that E and E share a birthday with my mom and I with your nephew :-)

Sarah S said...

Congrats on becoming an Auntie!!!

Your babies are real cutie pies!!

Happy ICLW #97

foxy said...

I hate that nothing is normal any more too. It was one of the first things i grieved when we got our diagnosis.

I've started joking, although I think I might be serious, about my future IVF twins. i think I might be crazy but it sure seems like heaven from the outside looking in!

thanks for stopping by to say hi on my blog! It is so awesome to know that the other side does exist. Your babies are so sweet and beautiful. I look forward to following your story.

Miss Ruby said...

Congratulations on your new addition!!

~ttc for 11 years
~8 miscarriages
~still chasing that elusive viable bubba