Thursday, November 27, 2008

9 weeks and morning sickness has arrived...

just in time for thanksgiving. I really thought I was going to avoid the whole throwing up thing as I've been lucky up until this point, but no such luck. Now I'm nervous about going over to someone's house for thanksgiving and attempting to eat and fearing that it's not going to work so well.

Marcus has been waiting for this day because he seems to have some crazy notion that I'm not actually pregnant unless I have morning sickness, he's nuts. And he wants me to eat again since obviously the first breakfast didn't work out, but I'm a little hesitant. This better stop before classes start again. How awkward would that be, and our classrooms are really not designed for easy and subtle exits. All kinds of embarrassment may be awaiting me these next few weeks of school.

I'm still exhausted and fight to stay awake pretty much everyday, but all in all it's not to bad. Also the spotting has for the most part stopped this week and no more bleeding which is a huge relief I don't think I can handle any more scares.

Here's hoping thanksgiving dinner goes okay.

Saturday, November 22, 2008

Everything looks okay...

The ultrasound showed two healthy babies with strong heart beats and no noticeable reason for the bleeding. What a relief. Marcus and I were a mess before going, to the point that Marcus has been preparing himself for the worst.

Baby A: Measured 8w4d (three days ahead yay!) with a heart beat of 176 bpm.
Baby B: Measured 8w1d (right on target) with a heart rate of 164 bpm.

Both the ultrasound tech and my OB said that those heart rates were perfect and everything looks great. I still wish we had a reason for the bleeding or better yet that it would just stop happening. Marcus was so cute yesterday when it was over, you could just see the relief in his eyes. Poor guy.

This is also the first ultrasound we've left where everything looked okay. So okay in fact that I don't have to have another ultrasound next week (first time in four weeks). I'm hoping for a very uneventful next few weeks until our next appointment on December 8th.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

8 weeks and a bigger scare...

I keep waiting for a week when everything goes okay but apparently no such luck. Around 5:30 I was having some significant cramping in my lower back and uterus. So I laid down to take a nap. When I woke up at 6:30 I was bleeding heavy red blood, and it hasn't stopped.

It's way worse than the bleeding at 5 weeks, at the doctor at urgent care did very little to alleviate my fears. There's nothing to be done right now I'm just suppose to rest and then they'll try and get me in to see the doctor before our already scheduled ultrasound. I'm trying to stay calm, but I'm so so scared and so is Marcus.

I don't understand why this keeps happening. I'm praying that everything is okay with our babies. I'm so scared.

The on call doctor was also kind of a jerk about the fact that in his words, "You're only 24 what were you doing see an RE?"

Really not the appropriate moment to make stupid assumptions about a persons fertility based on age.

This has been the week from hell for so many reasons and this really doesn't help. Not to mention I didn't go to an important event for my internship tonight and I know that I'm going to have to offer an excuse. I'm really not in the mood to discuss my pregnancy issues and concerns with my 60 year old male supervisor.

Thursday, November 13, 2008

7 weeks /First OB appointment...

I keep waiting for an appointment when I leave feeling like everything is okay. *sigh* Overall the appointment was standard medical history, a bunch of forms, weight (123 still haven't gained anything), exam, tons of blood work, etc.

I caught my OB up to speed on the bleeding and the last ultrasound with the second baby measuring behind, so she decided to do another ultrasound. Both babies still have heartbeats but now both are measuring behind. The baby that was measuring 6w1d last week is now measuring 6w according to her machine. How is that even possible? And the second baby that was measuring 5w6d is now measuring 6w4d. They should both be 7 weeks.

What the hell? Now I'm really freaked out that something is wrong with both babies and there's nothing I can really do. I'm hoping it's just a matter of different machines. My OB's machine was older and she did say she was having a hard time getting a reading. I go in next friday on a better machine for another ultrasound but until then I guess I'll just continue to worry.

She also told me to cancel my appointment with the RE tomorrow, but part of me wants to go and see if she gets a different reading on the dates using her machine. Marcus is really worried and I feel so bad because there's nothing that can be done. I wish he would have been able to go to this appointment with me.

Right now I'm trying to be positive as of today both babies have heart beats... I'm trying to hold onto that.

Friday, November 7, 2008

6 weeks 1 day and pregnant with twins!

We had our follow up ultrasound with the doctor today to check on the status of our baby and hopefully see a heartbeat. Instead we found another baby and saw two heartbeats. Holy crap! There is a little bit of concern with the second baby though because it's measuring at only 5w6d and the heartbeat was much slower, and it just doesn't look as healthy as the other one.

My doctor was very cautious in warning us that she doesn't know what's going to happen, but given the smaller size and slower heart beat it's possible we'll lose that baby.

She also still sees an area in the uterus where I might still be bleeding. We'll go back next friday for another look to see how they're both doing, but for right now I'm pregnant with twins.

Below in the first ultrasound picture you can see the two sacks, the one on the bottom is noticeably smaller. The other two images are of the stronger of the two babies.