Generations...

Emerson loves trying to figure out our family.

She's constantly asking "Who is Grammy? Your mom or daddy's mom?"

"Who is Gram, Daddy's mom?"

The other day I showed her a picture of my grandma who we all call Mama mou, and haven't mentioned anything since then.

Tonight as I was tucking her into bed we had the best talk.

She said, "Who is Grandma moo moo? Your mom?"

So I explained to her how Grammy is my mom, and Grandma moo moo (isn't that the cutest?) is Grammy's mom, and I'm her mom.

Lots of moms and generations for her to figure out.

Then we talked about our names which is one of her favorite things. When I ask her, her whole big name she always says proudly, "Emerson Elaine S."

And she knows my whole big name is, "Sadie Elaine" and then I remind her that Grammy and Grandma Moo Moo share the name Elaine too.

So adorable. At the end of the conversation she asked me why Grandma moo moo lived so far away, and she wanted to go see her. Me too Emmy, me too. It's been far too long since I've seen my grandparents.

Grandma Moo Moo (Mama mou), Grammy, mama (me), and Emmy baby. At my sisters wedding in 2010. The only time we've all four been together.

Learning to Give...

We have too much stuff.

It's driving me crazy and I have a burning desire to literally rid our house of everything we own (except my books...)

I decided this might be a good chance to teach Eli and Emerson about giving. So in the car I decided to broach the subject of giving away some of their toys to boys and girls who don't have any.

We didn't make very much progress.

Me: Eli & Emmy you have so many new toys from your birthday do you think it would be a good idea to give some of your old toys to boys and girls who don't have any?

Emmy: No, I like my toys.

Eli: Why they have no toys.

Me: Some kids don't have very much money and so they don't have toys. Giving them toys would make them very happy.

Emmy: Kavita has toys (her friend from school, and the only playdate she's ever had. Yes, in fact her friend Kavita has a lot of toys).

Eli: What's those kids names?

Me: I don't know their names, but it will make them happy. Also did you know that Jesus really likes when we give things to other people.

Emmy: Oliver has toys (another kid from school).

Me: Yes I know all your friends at school have toys, we would find other kids with no toys.

Emmy: Mom, all kids just have toys.

So that went well. I like that Eli didn't seem totally opposed to the idea he simply wanted more information about why they didn't have toys and who they were.

Emmy on the other hand is just difficult haha. I say that with all the love in the world but this girl. The other day I told them they needed to go clean their toy room because it was a mess. Emmy aptly pointed out that my own room was a mess too.

Fair enough. Did I mention we have too much stuff?

My babies turned 4...

How did that happen? Seriously, how did four years already go by? One minute I don't think we're possibly going to survive their infanthood and now they're these, crazy, amazing, kids that go to school and surprise and amaze me every day.

 

My Eli baby. 

All grown up in school picture. Doesn't he look just the same though in the face? Maybe it's just me?

My Emmy girl. Also all grown up. 

I'm not sure there have ever been two kids more excited for their birthday. They started counted down months ago. Of course their counting down was always about 4 more days in their mind, but finally the much anticipated day arrived.

And my mom and her husband came to visit for the occasion. Can I just tell you how nice it is to have family around? I feel bad because my work schedule was so insane the week my mom was visiting but on the other hand she made it possible for me to do everything I needed to do and be in 12 different places all at once, doing a million different things.

For example I had a work meeting the night before their birthday, but needed to make cupcakes for them to take to school.

 

Came home from meeting and Grammy, Eli & Emmy had finished the cupcakes!! So great.

 

We went out for a birthday dinner with the kids and they had fun with this juke box.

 

Of course it was the presents they had been waiting for.

 

 

My Eli loves music and he was super excited for a new guitar. 

 

Eli can't make normal faces for me.

 

I love how much they love each other.  As someone who has very complicated relationships with my 5 siblings. I pray that it may always be so.

  

And cake

 

Emmy didn't wait for a fork.

  

So much love for each other. 

It was a good 4th birthday. I think one of my favorite memories from the day is that Eli literally thought he was so much bigger.

On the morning of his birthday I was getting him dressed for school and he said, "I need new socks and underwear because I'm big now and they don't fit."

Then he went around the house to see if he could reach the sink, the microwave, and my personal favorite be able to drive the car.  He was so sure he was just a lot bigger. So adorable.

All 4 of Eli & Emmy's birthdays have been in different places. 3 states, 4 cities. I'm so happy that we are not moving this year!!  Birthday #5 will happen in this same city, in this same house.

What not to say to a working mom...

"Do you think your kids will recognize you when you get home?"

I literally spent 24 hours at the church. From 6pm Sat. until 6pm Sun.

A youth lock-in (sleeping at the church with the youth, well not so much sleeping), worship services, funeral prep, then funeral).

Thanks members of my congregation for making me feel worse than I already do. To add to my exhaustion and hunger let's pile on guilt shall we?

Then there was Holy Week and Easter...

Holy week in my line of work is one of the busiest weeks for me. Starting with Palm Sunday and then 3 or 4 worship services in one week leading up to Easter.

 The kids made donkeys and processed in church for palm sunday

 My cute babies and me on Palm Sunday

 I preached and looked like I was really into it.

 We had Holy Thursday and Good Friday

 Then Easter Egg dying

 And cooking with Gram

 Look a Bunny cake

 My office during holy week becomes chaos and madness

 messes everywhere

 and everywhere

 But we had big boxes and balloons for a resurrection surprise!

 The easter bunny came to visit

 I had a sunrise service

 And the kids were so excited

 We found eggs

 Emmy, found most of them.

 They wore their easter best

And we survived Holy Week and Easter and then I took a nap.

Vigil For Marriage Equality...

In an effort to try and get caught up on things. I thought I would start with something that I had a lot of fun doing last month.

As most people probably know the Supreme Court heard cases on Prop 8 and DOMA.

As a clergy person I decided it was important that those in the LGBQ community see vocal supportive clergy, so I traveled to San Francisco to take part in a vigil on the State Supreme Court Steps.

I have a wonderful time, met lots of amazing people, had my picture taken by many, and was on the news (in what can be described as some of the most awkward 30 seconds of my life. Why do they edit my statement in such weird ways haha).

It was a wonderful fulfilling way to spend several hours in solidarity with others praying for justice and change in our country.

 

Fellow Clergy Person Speaking

 

Me and a clergy friend. Giving a perfect "10" score

 

More of our signs. 

 

We were among the first to gather and stood there for about 5 hours I think.

If this video works you can see my super awkward news debute. I think it's about 30 seconds in. The rest of what I said was so much better (I think)

 

And since people were wearing Red that day in honor of marriage equality I had the kids get in on the act too. When I explained we were wearing red so that everyone could get married; people like their Auntie Kaylee and Auntie Lindy and Their Tios Jason & Delphin, 

Emerson's response was, "I want to be the flower girl." I love 3 year olds (most of the time)

*Photos and Events from March 26, 2013. I'm just behind on all things blogging.

*I obviously don't get into any theological conversation in this post, but if anyone is interested in why I support marriage equality from my Christian perspective let me know and I can write a post on it. I know so much of the assumption and rhetoric is that Christian's are against it, but that's not a universal truth at all; I support it, always have, so does my church and many many other Christians as well. 

Hello Blog...

Once upon a time I had a blog,

I updated it a lot and it was a great source of joy for me.

Now I barely make it through each day and week with never ending work, delightful but exhausting twins, and life.

I'm tired a lot.

Actually exhausted...

and I miss my blog and the community it offers.

I think I'll try to carve out some time each day to go back to writing.

I miss my sad little neglected blog.

Lenten Photo-a-day Continued...

 

Day 17: Prophet - just some of the many more modern day prophets

  

Day 18: Leave - The door by which I leave home every day and enter the world

 Day 19: Thirst - I thirst for justice for all people

 

Day 20: Bless - Blessed to have a job that allows me some flexibility when I have sick babies (hanging out in my office watching movies while mama works)

 

Day 21: Night - the stars that light ceiling in Eli & Emmy's room each night

 

Day 22: Shadow - Shadows of light in the sanctuary 

 

Day 23: NO- Always more than happy to help me yell NO

 

Day 24: Find - Emerson see treasure and value in everything she finds 

 

Day 25: Faithful - The faithfulness of my youth (with our Bishop)

 

Day 26: Ate - The best part of baking 

  

Day 27: Happy - sitting in the backyard reading in the spring sun

 

Day 28: Silence - Love the silence of this space in the midst of a busy work day