Hello Blog...

Once upon a time I had a blog,

I updated it a lot and it was a great source of joy for me.

Now I barely make it through each day and week with never ending work, delightful but exhausting twins, and life.

I'm tired a lot.

Actually exhausted...

and I miss my blog and the community it offers.

I think I'll try to carve out some time each day to go back to writing.

I miss my sad little neglected blog.

Lenten Photo-a-day Continued...

 

Day 17: Prophet - just some of the many more modern day prophets

  

Day 18: Leave - The door by which I leave home every day and enter the world

 Day 19: Thirst - I thirst for justice for all people

 

Day 20: Bless - Blessed to have a job that allows me some flexibility when I have sick babies (hanging out in my office watching movies while mama works)

 

Day 21: Night - the stars that light ceiling in Eli & Emmy's room each night

 

Day 22: Shadow - Shadows of light in the sanctuary 

 

Day 23: NO- Always more than happy to help me yell NO

 

Day 24: Find - Emerson see treasure and value in everything she finds 

 

Day 25: Faithful - The faithfulness of my youth (with our Bishop)

 

Day 26: Ate - The best part of baking 

  

Day 27: Happy - sitting in the backyard reading in the spring sun

 

Day 28: Silence - Love the silence of this space in the midst of a busy work day

 

 

My hope...

A couple nights ago I heard Eli & Emerson sneak down the hallway into my bedroom.

They brought their turtle which projects starts onto their ceiling set it up on the bedside table and climbed into our bed.

When I walked in to check on them they were snuggled together and looked so cute that I let them stay, I tucked them in, told them to stay put, be quiet, and go to sleep.

As I was leaving the room Emerson said, "mom can we talk?"

I told her as long as they were quiet.

As I walked out of the room I heard them whisper to each other, "Good night, Eli"

"Good night"

I hope they're always close to each other.

I have five sibilings so I know how complex sibling relationships can be, but as I watch them play, support, encourage, stand up for, worry, and bicker with each other.

I hope that they'll always be that way. May they always want to whisper good night to one another.

Lenten Journey in Pictures - Feb.

 

During the season of Lent I'm participating in a photo-a-day series using the above rubric. It's been a really fun creative way to put an image to the words. This is what I've done thus far for the month of February.

 

Day 1: Who am I? (Emerson took this picture)

 

Day 2: Return - A return to the state where I grew up

 

Day 3: See

 

Day 4: Injustice 

 

Day 5: Settle 

 

Day 6: World - Mine was never the same

 

Day 7: Wonder at the mystery of God's grace

 

Day 8: Evil: How are we all complicate in the evil around us? 

 

Day 9: Love: Be Love

 Day 10: Spirit - Emmy and her Godparent Delfin

 

Day 11: Live

 

Day 12: Vision: A new vision for the ministry of the church

 

Day 13: Cover- Don't cover who you Are

 

Day 14: Lift- high the cross

 

Day 15: Hear (a parishioner listening to me preach)

 

Day 16: Earthly - Emmy is amazed at the new growth in our grass

 

My baby is sick again & a new diagnosis...

Eli was diagnosed with pneumonia 2 weeks ago. He finished his antibiotics and he seemed better.  Then yesterday the symptoms started all over again, constant coughing, wheezing, trouble breathing, lack of energy, fever.

Off to the doctor this morning. After 2.5 hours, 2 breathing treatments and a chest x-ray (which scared Eli to death poor baby).

We learned that Eli has asthma. And while he is sick right now, hence the fever, the asthma is what makes a simple illness turn into a breathing nightmare.

The doctor gave him steroids and we were given an inhaler to use.

We have to go back to the doctor tomorrow to recheck his o2 stats and his breathing and then we'll make an appointment to learn how to manage his asthma and prevent further visits to the doctor for breathing issues from things like colds.

My poor sick baby, sat cuddled in my lap for the entire two hours (which is really really unlike him).

There was a moment when his hand was resting on my chest just like it did when he was a baby, and I had a hard time believing how big my 3lb boy had gotten.

We came home after the doctor and we both fell asleep for several hours.

I'm happy to report that Emerson went to school alone for the first time today and she did great. No issues at all!

 

Such a trooper with the breathing treatments. 

 

 

I think he fell asleep on the ride home mid-lick (which is why his tongue is out) Poor baby really wanted the sucker but had no energy to actually eat it. He held it for hours today.

Review: A Good American by Alex George

Alex George tells the story of new immigrants to American. By chance the two young immigrants arrive at their new home in Missouri not knowing anyone and not speaking a word of English.

This was a beautifully written book. With the story being narrated by later generations telling the family story. As characters, history, and story intertwine and this family learns what it is to be an American. That idea and looking different for each new generation.

I loved the writing and the character development in this story. The author has the unique ability to weave this story together in a beautiful way that will make you laugh and cry. Alex George tells a story of what it is to a be a new person in this country, town, and even family.

Beautifully written and I highly recommended it!

You can read more and join the conversation here!

This is a paid review for BlogHer Book Club but the opinions expressed are my own

Want to see my week...

This past week was crazy busy and I think in many ways represents a lot of what it means to be both a mom and a pastor.

Monday - I spent 5 hours in a "faux" interview for my upcoming commissioning interview. The next big step in my ordination process. 

Tuesday - Eli & Emmy made it through 1.5 hours of school before I had to go pick them up. Eli went to urgent care and was diagnosed with pneumonia.

 He got a big kick out of the fact that this was a fishy. He also was so proud that he remembered to bring Emerson home a sucker from the doctor. He got home from the doctor at 9pm and was disappointed that sissy was already in bed. He had it hidden behind his back and said, "Sissy guess what I got for you"

Wednesday - I worked from home in the morning and early afternoon with my sick babies. We worked on homemade valentines. Emerson was insistent that she make the cards for her friends at school.

 

Emerson gets a little excited about her "E"

 

After Marcus got home on Wednesday I headed to the streets to do "Ashes to Go" A ministry that brings Ashes to people, if they can't get to church. Not super successful in my city haha but it was a nice thought.

 

 A few scenes from the street.

 

Then Ash Wednesday worship, followed by my young adult small group.

Thursday - My babies were still too sick for school so I delivered their valentines. My mother in law is here and I pack my bags for Las Vegas to attend a church related conference for young adult clergy and lay people.  

When my ride arrives for the airport the kids slam the door and lock it. I think they'll be just fine in the capable hands of their grandma and their dad haha

 

By thursday evening I'm on top of the stratosphere in Las Vegas for a mixer with other clergy and lay leader folks. After the stratosphere had my first encounter with Korean Karaoke. Best thing ever! If you haven't experienced it you must. It's brilliant. Back to my room by 1:30am, then sleep.

Friday - Conference most the day with amazing inspiring talks and music. Wonderful change of pace after a busy early week. 

Loved it. 

Friday night - Down to Fremont street in vegas. Some some interesting things... home by 1:30am

Saturday - More conference in the morning, then down to the strip for some sight seeing.

 

Got to hang out with some fellow clergy. We're all alums of the same undergraduate university. (Haven't seen one of these friends for 5 years so great to reconnect in Vegas)

 

Then in true Vegas fashion time for a buffet. We sat there for 3 hours eating, laughing and talking. Then I learned how to play craps. (I didn't actually play) but I watched for 1.5 hours and asked a lot of questions. Game 90% mastered. (Jack Black may or may not have been at our craps table, photographic evidence exists on another cell phone) Home that night at 2am.

  Sunday - Morning worship and the close of the conference. Had Vietnamese food for the first time, then headed to Hoover Dam before our flight home.

Many jokes about my height over the course of the weekend. (The others are crouching down in this picture I am not haha)

 Then we grew!! (Or the wall got shorter either way). I asked everyone to pose for this picture and surprisingly they did. 

 

Good times with some new and old friends.

Sunday night arrive home from vegas around 9pm. Talk to my in-laws for 30 minutes and pass out asleep.

Monday morning - Day off from work and home with my babies who in true form have been amusing me by saying hilarious things all day.

Emmy: "Could I have some paper and scissors, I won't cut my hair."
Me: I'm not sure I believe you...

Emmy: Mom why do tomatoes hurt our elbows? 

Eli: I can't find my spoon! I can't find my spoon! (He stuck in the back of his pants *shaking my head*)

I'm exhausted but fulfilled. How was your week?