Random Ramblings...

I'm bored with summer. I'm tired of the heat, I bored with the liturgical year (it's not a very exciting time in the church calendar).

I want rain, fall weather, fall clothes, fall holidays, new classes and church events. I'm just ready for something different.

Did I mention I really, really want it to rain? My favorite thing is the world, is to curl up on the couch, with a blanket, and a book while it rains outside.

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This morning 4 guys were smoking weed on the steps of the church. I was kind of taken aback by their boldness, and then I had to wonder if they remembered it was Sunday. Then I wondered if maybe they did it because it was Sunday. Who knows? I never know what to do in these situations. Four bigs guys, one little me, do I tell them to leave, do I hope they leave on their own? We have no Sheriff in town (see it's even worse than the "real" Mayberry they at least had a sheriff. My Mayberry has no sheriff). If they're going to hang out on the steps of the church I at least wish they would come in and worship with us. They did leave before church started and before I even had to head over to the church. I could just seen them from my window, and Marcus on his run this morning went past them.

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We have peaches growing on a tree outside. It thrills Eli & Emerson to death to go pick a peach and then eat it. I love it! They always come in saying, "tree, tree, tree gibberish, gibberish, gibberish, tree" this is how they tell me stories. It's adorable.

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I need to get a CA license ASAP. I'm a little afraid I will fail the written test. That's pathetic isn't it? I've been a licensed drive for 11 years. We'll see how it goes.

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The other night I confessed a random fear I had to Marcus. For the first time in the lives of Eli & Emerson their room is on the ground floor. Before we lived on the second floor of an apartment, and most recently in a two level townhouse. So their room was always up high. I have this random fear that someone is going to break into our home and take a child. I know it's ridiculous. Once I said it out loud I felt better and he only laughed a little (in a loving way) and then made sure the window was locked.

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I still check and make sure they're breathing after they fall asleep? Do other parents do that too? When if ever do you think it stops?

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I've only read two books so far in August. That's pathetic. I think I need some rain to get me back in a reading mood. Plus a few new good book suggestions. Anyone have a book they've loved recently? I need something please.

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Eli ran up behind the pulpit today and started playing the piano in the middle of the church service. They were acting like 2 year olds a lot at church today. Oh, those PK's (pastors kids).

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I've got to write an article about myself for the clergy women's newsletter. I find writing about myself to be incredibly difficult. Especially since the newsletter has a theme. It's due tomorrow. Well done on the procrastination Sadie... well done.

I have high hopes that someday I'll stop procrastinating...

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I read a NYT article today on Twin pregnancy reduction . I'm too tired to respond fully but I sometimes feel like they find some of the most extreme or odd people to highlight in these articles about ART. For example this quote:

“If I had conceived these twins naturally, I wouldn’t have reduced this pregnancy, because you feel like if there’s a natural order, then you don’t want to disturb it. But we created this child in such an artificial manner — in a test tube, choosing an egg donor, having the embryo placed in me — and somehow, making a decision about how many to carry seemed to be just another choice. The pregnancy was all so consumerish to begin with, and this became yet another thing we could control.”

What an odd statement. I "know" lost of people who used ART to conceive their babies. 50% of the women on Moms of Multiples board in fact. I don't know anyone who feels that their pregnancy was consumerish. I certainly don't even though we paid for the sperm and the doctors to get me pregnant. I would also like to point out that my twins while not conceived spontaneously are natural. (Small pet peeve). This woman's whole statement just rubbed me the wrong way. Like I said the NYT picks weird people to highlight. (Plus the comments on these articles... eek to some of them).

Anyways, interesting article. I will say that when I saw my OB for the first time after being released from my RE and I told her I was having twins her response was, "And are you okay with that?" I just answered, "Don't I have to be?" And that was the end of the conversation. I've always wondered what was behind the question, but I never pressed the issue.

Good night!